a nuts a nut?


"In this vision he showed me a little thing, the size of a hazelnut, and it was round as a ball. I looked at it with the eye of my understanding and thought "What may this be?" And it was generally answered thus: "It is all that is made." I marvelled how it might last, for it seemed it might suddenly have sunk into nothing because of its littleness. And I was answered in my understanding: "It lasts and ever shall, because God loves it."
— Julian of Norwich

So I found this whole deck of acorns in Black Mountain … all lined up in little rows resting in between the long shadows and the warm glow of the autumn sun.  I thought it was fantastic.  I know, of all the things to garner my attention on this 160 acre camp in the mountains, it’s a deck full of acorns.

But you see I remembered that Julian of Norwich wrote something about God loving us like an acorn resting in the palm of his hand.  I couldn’t remember her words exactly (as Liz eloquently pointed out that Julian actually wrote about hazlenuts not acorns … but in a moment of recovery, we decided that clearly if Julian had lived in Black Mountain, NC,  the vision would have been about acorns instead — a nut’s a nut right?) 

but still the connection was somehow there … I couldn’t remember exactly how Julian’s vision went … but it didn’t matter cause those acorns just kept whispering "God holds you in love";  and that love is as plentiful as all these acorns scattering not only the deck boards but the surrounding ground as well.   

So I spent more than a day listening to and watching these acorns from a nearby swing and finally there was only one thing to do … I got up, crossed the porch and plopped myself down in the middle of them.   Squashed a few in the process but crossed legged and determined I sat in the middle of this sea of acorns. 

Maybe I needed to be reminded that I was small but still held.   Maybe I needed to just sit in love for a while.   Maybe I just needed the reassurance of Julian’s simple words:

"God made it, God loves it, God keeps it."

whether it be a hazlenut or an acorn:  God made it, God loves it, God keeps it.

a nuts still a nut.